Every year we make jokes about all the people trying to set goals for themselves throughout the coming year. The memes are endless. It’s not bad to set goals for yourself, it’s just, most people never stick too it. They go hard at it for a few days maybe weeks and eventually the thrill of a new year wears of and they fall back into old habits. It’s easy to fall back- trust me, I know. The resolutions are always something big like a change in diet or exercising more or breaking a bad habit- it doesn’t last for everyone.
To each his own.
I wrote a blog at the beginning of 2015 talking about all this. About how I like who i was becoming and was striving to be better. And, if you scroll back to that post, the picture i used for that one is exactly what happened to me that year. I was beaten.
At the beginning of 2016 I decided that my one and only goal was to be a better person- a happier person. If I didn’t like the way I was at the end of 2016 I’d carry on that goal into the new year. My goal was limitless. It meant that I had to find that determination, imagination and perseverance that I once had- I could feel it slipping away from me. It meant I had to stay humble while being vocal and knowing when to stand up for myself. It meant I had to control my rage and understand that feeling sad wasn’t a sign of weakness; I’m only human. Being a better me meant that I had to step up and stop waiting for the world to understand. It meant… It meant so much to me.
The past week made me realize that I’d really stuck to my goal right until the end. The person I am today compared the person I was on January 1st 2016 well, they’re like two complete different people. That person had lost her inspiration but I’ve found it again and I’m working on my second and third book. That person was loosing the will to do anything, but now I find a way even if i only have an hour. That person felt like she was the only person on the planet who cared, if even at all, for her… now, i spend several days and nights a week with at least five people I know that care.
How did I go from one to the other? I honestly couldn’t even tell you when it all started to change. It feels like it was all over night (and it sort of was), but I know people don’t just change overnight. I must have done something different along the way. All I knew was that I was done being that tired person. I know who I am now- it took damn long to figure out, but I do. I also know what I want to become.
My point here- If you’re making a new year’s resolution, let it be something meaningful. Nothing superficial; not something you randomly thought of on a drunken New Year’s eve night. Let it be something that makes you smile every time you think back to where you were and how far you’ve come.
Link to the 2015 post. I know, they’re kind of similar. On another note, the one good thing I did in 2015 was step into the world of Harry Potter. The fangirl in me is strong; you can tell by all the unnecessary collectable items I keep buying.